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i'm not experienced in relationships (rls) at all.
i've ony had one ex whom i think CHEATED ON ME WTFBBQ!

lol.

so yeah. i recently added this alumnus on msn.
cos i heard from a friend that he came out in jc and was kinda persecuted.
a parent actually told him to "screw out of *** (his sch's name)" cos he was gay.

i mean WTF right.
SCREW HOMOPHOBES!

seriously...i wish that their son suddenly became gay and i'd love see how they deal with it.

and what are homophobes afraid of?

that we'd fall in love with them?

if you're legitimately cute, i can still accept it.

but if you are a walrus and look like the guy who kissed kurt in glee, 

PLEASE DON'T FLATTER YOURSELF!

and even if you're real cute and there are gays flocking over you, what are you afraid of?
that we'll eat u for lunch?
it's not like we'll stalk you to no end. (i'm speaking for the majority. let's leave the despo outliers aside)
shldnt you be kinda flattered instead of feeling disgusted. ._.


anw so yeah we chatted really well.
i guess at first i added him out of sympathy and wanted to give him encouragement (yes i'm a saint thank you)
and because he's kinda cute?
at first i really didnt harbour any thoughts about ltr...
but we started flirting and he kept asking me for the real reason i've added him.
so after rationalising, i tot he's kinda cute and he lives near me so why not give it a try
thus, i made it look like i've an ulterior motive for adding him
but, you know, being the bitch that i am who loves my face, i turned the table around and made him the one to ask "maybe we can go further?" instead.

and the next day, i went to his house and we hj-ed.
i was his 2nd.
LOL.
we lay on the bed for a while and i was lying on his shoulders.
kinda sweet. it has been a long time since i've felt that way.
then you know, the hanky-panky began after i felt his hard-on with my elbow.
i started sliding my fingers along his body, he's super ticklish btw and was squirming all the way HAHHAA. (ok i'm ticklish too. cant stand it but it's funny when i tickle other ppl)
and finally my fingers came down to his dick.
it was freaking WET!
he had his pants on, with underwear underneath and his precum seeped through both layers.
ok maybe i'm inexperienced but it's the first time i've seen it happenning.
meanwhile, i felt something going on around my crotch area.
but it wasnt at my dick!
his fingers were grabbing smth else -.-
after a while i was like, eh you know that isn't my dick right?!
him: huh? really ah?

i mean WTF.
it's not like i'm small or anything such that it's impossible to locate.
and i'd understand if some straight guys cant locate a cb and mistake the anus for one.
but my dick was hard and it was a protrusion, not a depression like a cb!
idk wat he was grabbing for that period of time.
-.-

so yeah, the usual happened.
i jerked him off first and yeah he returned the favour.

and HE CHASED ME OUT OF THE HOUSE AFTER CLEANING UP.
as in not really chased but said smth like "eh i think you shld go...mom works nearby"

OK FINE.

i'd leave.
returned home.
was hoping he'd msn me (his phone spoilt) so couldnt sms.


nothing.

the next day...

nothing.

and i was getting quite angry.
i mean, you asked me to "go further" and you ignore me after sex?!
(ok idc wat others say, it's still sex even though we did not anal. so long as 2 persons, dicks and cumshots are involved, it's sex)

so i decided to spite him and with the help of this friend, whom i shall call AN, i pretended that i've a bf.
so i added AN into our msn convo and he was like "eh lmo(little mister obsessive), ur bf told me u guys went to watch a movie just now..."

he appeared to be pretty cool with it which led me to believe he knew it was all a lie.
i continued flirting with him .
everything seemed normal.
so on the 3rd day, i was kinda horny, and asked if he'd lend me a book i saw on his shelf.
he said ok and told me to meet him at the mrt.
i was like oh ok...disappointed lah!

didnt really think much of it until i came back home and msned him again.
then i realised HE REALLY THOUGHT I HAD A BF.
i mean, what kind of person would tolerate it right?!
if you asked someone to stead, and the next day he came back flaunting his bf in your face, would you still be friendly towards that guy?
i'd have gone livid and unleashed my tongue on him!

so after i revealed the truth.
he was like "omy...i've a big headache now."

me, sensing smth was wrong, "why? someone else you like?"

at this point of time, i was conversing with AN cos i confided in AN that i kinda like this guy and all. and asked why he's ignoring me etc. you know, the usual aj confidant kind of person...
previously i've also intro-ed AN to that guy...

then AN suddenly said "eh i think i'm the one he likes"

i asked him. confirmed it.
and i was like WTF FML.

super drama serial -.-

seriously, i've only myself to blame for playing such games right?
i cldnt have blamed AN cos i know him and he wldnt dare flirt with that guy...
it was just normal conversation.
i cldnt blame that guy cos he really thought i was with someone else and gave up hope on me...and AN is very entertaining and has quite an addictive personality...i liked him once before. nong nong time ago. (dun gloat if u read this)

and right now he cant make a decision if he wants me or AN.

but seriously, do you think AN would dare to be with him?
i knew AN since...early this year and i think he'd not want to compromise this friendship just for that guy?
not that i'd have blamed AN.

but well, knowing AN, he wldnt do such a thing to me.
so his obvious choice would be ME right?!

wtf does he need to choose for.

but obviously, i didnt tell him that.
i had to pretend to be very mature about it.
and i went "oh i wldnt want to influence your choice. i cant sway you or it will be insincere and i would hate that"

wtf super fake!

but what was i to do?
tell him how he'd be hanging on false hopes that he can be with AN?

and the worst thing is, he'd be overseas for three freaking weeks.
so i'd be left hanging.
right here in SG.
rowr. :(
hate this!