faster shake!

abc: eh lmo! let me see your ipod touch!

i took it out and was like OMG FUCK.
what if she finds my grindr app?! (i left in in the folder but have not dl-ed that folder lock app)
handed her my ipod without unlocking it.

*acts innocent* while buying time to think of what to do...

abc: eh unlock for me leh!

takes the phone back and grudgingly unlocked it...gave it back to her.

abc: how come it's a game screen? end it lah!

took it back again.
pressed the home button.
clicked on that folder...
held on to the app icon.

throughout that time i was like

fucker icon...shake...shake faster shake and show that freaking "X"!
luckily i learnt how to delete apps the day before, or i would have been outed!
so close.

abc: oh all games only? chey...

PHEW

i'm in!

yeah i got into the course i wanted!

was waiting for the sms in the morning, woke up arnd 7.30 and was in the half-awake mode.
then i kept telling myself i cant go back to sleep as i wanna know the results first hand.
and woohoo! made it! :D

but guess wat, 2 of them got in as well.
rowr.
fml.
one didn't apply for it, and even if he did he wouldnt have got in as the cop was too low.
then the hot one is actually appealing away.
hope he succeeds.
but then even if he does, there's still one left.
and he's, how do i put this, i'll never like someone with his personality.
the "bro bro" kind of person who likes to act smart/haoliaon.
yay!
so awesome right!
my future classmate for three fucking years :)

i'm in love with boys

what an awesome way to come out! 

hahahaha

initially i thought that the guy was cute...

until he started stripping and i found him too...over?

anybody wants to try?

sidenote: idk some ppl take things too seriously. look at the utube comments saying that it's too stereotypical.
i'm sure it was just meant to be funny.
lighten up! :D

diarrhoea

i hate diarrhoea!
it's horrendous to have to hold it in; diarrhoea is so much more difficult/painful to control than solids.

hate it especially if i've to travel long distances or if i've to go to places where the toilets are stinky and gross.
can't stand public toilets that have wet floors :X

rmb i had diarrhoea after a road trip in mly and i had to ask the driver to stop at the nearest toilet, which was at some park or wtv and there wasn't even a sitting bowl!

luckily in sg, toilets are rather ubiquitous, but it's another question for clean ones that are usable.
most shopping centre toilets are awesome though.

urgh. i think i'm lactose intolerant.
or something in milk causes me to have runs.
it's frustrating cos i loved milk since i was young...and at some point of time i treated it like water.
i'd drink milk instead of water when i'm thirsty.
then idk why, i stopped consuming it for a period of time and when i started drinking it again recently, my digestive system can't take it.
rmb i saw a doctor once (when my school had cross-country day so i could skip it...i swear i rly did  have diarrhoea though) and asked him why i'm allergic to milk all of a sudden.
he replied that it's cos my "enzymes dried up"?!
got such thing meh...


fortunately, i still am able to handle dairy products like cheese/ butter/ yogurt etc.
but why not milk?!
rowr.

GRINDR

hahahhaha i finally managed to use grindr!

woohooo~

k apparently there are gays super close to me...like 179m away?
but does it take height into account?

like issit 179m away on the same floor...
or 179m downstairs...
or shortest distance of 179m i.e. diagonal distance?

but erm, im not gonna post my pic...
and idk if i shld initiate convo.

and erm, is there anyway to hide the app?
i dun want ppl to browse thru my ipodtouch and get a big surprise.
any experts...pls help lol

ohoh and erm, how to jailbreak ah?
sry, a real tech-no here :X

i want a clean slate

one of the reasons i chose to pursue my course is because most of my schoolmates would be doing A levels.
little did i know that 3 of them would select the same course as me.

idk, i just feel like i need a fresh place to start over.
not that my secondary school life was a total disaster, i just long for a new environment.
i would very much prefer my course to not have any familiar people.

especially since i'm not close to the three of them. AT ALL.
and only one is hot.
so yeah, no point having them in my course. :X

hmmm...there's actually some hope of them not entering.
the hot guy chose an International Baccalaureate school for his first choice...whose last year's cop (cut-off-point) was 5 (if i didn't remember wrongly) so i shall pray that he gets in.

i just realised i shld not say what my course cop was or it'll be super easy to trace.

heard the other 2 didn't meet last year's cop.
so i shall pray that my course's cop will be even lower this year.
and they wouldnt stand a chance of geting in.
woohooo~~

:X
ok but this is damn evil.
idk lah, i feel very conflicted.

but it isn't my decision after all.
shall leave it to fate then.
*crosses fingers*
i will not quit even if any of them enters the course.
will. score. with. flying. colours. :)

sidenote: if the cop gets too low, i may not get in. so juz hope that i'll be the only one from my sch to enter lah ok :X

aeroplane

 hfc (sms): hey wanna karaoke tomorrow or friday?

me: how abt burlesque tml?

hfc: LOL oso can lah!

*suggests places to watch and eat*

after a short while, he called and spoke in a fake apologetic tone, "can we watch it on friday instead?"


needless to say, i was chucked aside cos he found others to hang with.
it's so freaking rude right?
if i were the one who initiated the meet up, it would be alright i guess.
but it was him who asked me out first and cancelled without hesitation when others called him to join them.
i feel...used?

and i've already made it clear to him that i've work on friday.
was so pissed i juz hung up on him.

~

thankfully, i still managed to find company for the day.
went BOWLING with classmates!
:X
i'm just not talented in this sport.
played 2 games.
yeah i've bowled before...the last time was like 2 years ago?

so it totally wasnt my fault that i got...
*drumsroll*

25 points for the first game.

guttered all the way...totally embarrassing.
luckily i managed to save some face by scoring 61 for the second game. :)

impressions

saw tuls's post on superficiality...

while yes, i agree that it's wrong to judge someone solely based on their looks/appearance, it should not be totally neglected.

it isn't possible for someone to change their facial features unless yes, one undergoes plastic surgery,
but there are definitely other ways to improve the impression that you give off.

i guess guys are really at a disadvantage as girls can just put on their make up and fake lashes and become beautiful.

here's proof:

but that doesn't mean that guys cant do anything about the vibe they emit.

there's the hair to style, stubble to shave etc etc.
ok it actually depends on what impression you wanna give out.
like if you dun wanna look nerdy anymore, lose the thick glasses.

idk lah i'm no expert. but i think u can just ask any gay friends of yours for advice.



i guess what i'm trying to say is, there's really no truly ugly person.
i really can't think of anyone i find beyond hope in terms of looks.
just perhaps a little work here and there.

and how would you know where to work on?
constructive criticism.
it isn't pleasing to the ears...but at least you know where you can improve?

even if it's destructive comments...
you can either
1) ignore and remain ugly
or
2) go get a makeover, look totally hot, parade in front of those bitches and steal their bf :)
never mind how long it takes. as the saying goes, jun zi bao chou shi nian bu wan (it's never to late to get revenge)

but in order to do that, effort has to be put in.
i really don't understand why some people refuse to invest in improving appearance.
you don't have to spend an astronomical amount, just make an effort.
first impressions are really important don't you think?
so it definitely doesn't make sense for you to meet someone with your hair unkempt, dressed sloppily and all.
why put urself at such a disadvantage?
if your too lazy then yeah there's nothing anyone can do. (like how i'm lazy to workout and will remain fat)

and do not ever let those nasty comments bring you down.
don't fucking cry about it.
cos there's definitely someway to improve...be confident.
but if all you do is to emo abt it and expect to be pitied,
go fuck urself cos you'll never find a willing soul.

happy birthday to me! :)

i've always considered myself a capricorn and it wasnt until recently that i realised i was actually born between the capricorn-aquarius cusp.

so yeah, i've actually personality of both signs and i'm AWESOME.
lol jk.

and erm, there's no way i'm gonna accept that stupid octopus (idk how it's spelt lah and i wont bother to correct it) into the astrological signs.

i mean ok, if people tell me they are the octopus, then fine so be it. but i'm not gonna change mine.
CAPRICORN FTW!

and stop calling capricorn a stinking goat u ppl!
it's half-goat, half fish ok!

anw, found this online:

Characteristics: Aquarius Cusp

01. Capricorn/Aquarius cusps are involved with and interested in social institutions. They want to make them work as they were meant to work
not really.
.
02. They are humanitarians and philanthropists, the visionaries of the Zodiac.
no as well. maybe in future when i'm rich...but not now.

03. Friendship is important to them, and they have many acquaintances, in addition to their close friends.
idk about this. i've few, close friends. dont really talk much to acquaintances actually.


04. These people are also ambitious and disciplined, determined and dedicated to achieving their goals. They are practical, realistic and cautious not to get in over their heads.
i think it's too early to tell.

05. Capricorn/Aquarians work hard to bring their ideas to fruition, stubbornly refusing to give up their causes. This may appear as a Capricorn trait, but it is actually representative of the fixed quality of Aquarius
.
06. The cardinal quality of Capricorn is seen in their ambition and their willingness to embark on new projects. These people are independent and individualistic, within the world but detached from it. While they are peace-loving and friendly, they can be narrow-minded and overcritical of those not as ambitious as they are.
yeah, this is very true.

07. Saturn is about discipline, hard work and responsibility. It rules both Capricorn and Aquarius; Capricorn is the feminine, or night aspect, and Aquarius is the masculine, or day aspect. Both signs are concerned with achieving goals through hard work, but Aquarians work hard to achieve their visions, while Capricorns use hard work to gain authority and social status.
again, too early to tell.

08. Some Aquarians have genius that borders on insanity, and their progressive ideas and association with anything that is different makes them dissimilar from Capricorn. Although Capricorn/Aquarians are powerfully influenced by both Uranus and Saturn. Those born on this cusp are both unpredictable and unconventional, while being interested in upholding tradition and conservative belief systems.


09. This cusp are tolerant and broad-minded, they tend to stick to their beliefs. Their intellect makes them logical and self-confident, but it may also make them aloof from the people around them. They are original, offbeat and even eccentric, but they are also rather bored by detail.
quite true i guess.

10. They are often business-oriented and can be extremely scrupulous. Reformist and experimental, they may also seem cold toward anyone who doesn’t share their intellectual orientation to life.
i didn't know this before. i guess i chose the right course then.

11. Capricorn/Aquarians are among the responsible and traditional sign combinations. They are generally reserved, careful and stable.
 
12. Sometimes they may be overly critical, even bossy, but this is because they have a strong desire to achieve their goals, not because they are rude. In fact, they are generally polite because they understand that making enemies will not help them achieve anything in life.
yeah. note to self: cannot make enemies in my course. heard it's political enough alr :X every1's warning me.


13. They tend to be multitalented, both in scientific and creative endeavors.
hahahah! as if! i'd flunk if i pursue science. ok bio maybe not.

14. They are unique and rebellious, driven to change the world. Their freedom is important to them, and they are often driven to help others become free as well.
freedom is absolutely impt :)

15. They are quite the social animals and often have a fondness for conversation, as long as it has intellectual depth and meaning.
hehehehe i dun like talking to people who erm, thinks on a different wavelength as me.
 
16. The great strength of the Capricorn/Aquarius is in their ability to set goals and keep working until they achieve them. Their ambition is inexhaustible, and they are not easily deterred when their goals are in sight.
too early to tell.

17. Their visionary nature makes them people who take the world to the next level; they make others see things in a new light.
ditto


18. Their ability to break the rules and move beyond what others think is possible makes them one of the most innovative and hard working characters of the zodiac.
lalala



hahahaha! so yeah, maybe this will help you know more about me.
i think i revealed quite a bit of myself on this blog, it wouldn't be hard for my friends to identify me.
hope none will find out soon! haha!

where's my present people?

and idk what you guys think about birthday wishes sent via facebook.
i find it rather insincere.
it's like, i've people whom i've never talked to wishing me.
ok it's not so bad if you write a short statement (like wishes, memories of us tgt etc) after the "happy birthday!" but it's quite plain and dull if it's just that alone don't you think?

i replied every single one anw. hahahhaa i'm shooo nice LOL.
kk i'm getting more and more bu yao lian.
i'm even wishing myself happy birthday on my blog.
but what's wrong with celebrating the birth of such an awesome person rite?
hahaha jk.
good luck in the following year every1!
i wish for everyone's well-intentioned wishes to come true (especially my own)!

Vampire Diaries

love this show but the next episode will only be out on 27th january.
such a bitch.
c'mon let that day arrive quickly..


Vampire Diaries is full of eyecandies!



1) Steven R. McQueen

my fav character in the show!
he's like super duper uber cute!
just look at his smile...
*heart-melts*

2) Paul Wesley

abs-olutely hot!
you can totally do body shots off the defined indentations!
woohoo~ fantasies LOL


3) Ian Somerhalder

i think i'll just let a video and a link(NSFW) to the description. :)
watch the vid! you wont regret it hehehe.
abs-licious when he flew onto the railings (what do u call it?)

gosh, how do they achieve such chiselled bods.

could have and should have

you know how sometimes you'd look back and think,
wtf i shld have done that!
or
haix...i could have said this!

e.g. when sum1 insults me, i'd try my best to give a clever comeback.
but often a time, my brain can't process quick enough to give a satisfactory one.
then when recalling the situation later, i'd be able to come up with retorts that are so much better.


and today, i had to display some items from their cartons in the supermarket.
after i was done, i left the carton at the side for a while to go and find the price tags.
then this idiotic staff came and, "eh ur boxes are blocking everyone! faster take them away" and went to kick them.
i just replied with "orh."
then when i wanted to take them to the disposal area, i realised that some of the plastic covers had fallen out of the boxes because she kicked it.
didn't think much...just picked them up and threw the boxes away.

but when i returned, i just got angry.
like wtf does she think she is, kicking my things and leaving it for me to pick up later?
furthermore they were only in her way, cos it was at the side and hardly any1 walks there.
CB BITCH.
shld have asked her to put them back in place!
idk what i was thinking...or not thinking.
but later when i was gonna leave, she was talking to another promoter.
i went to that promoter and said, "hey uncle i'm leaving already. bye bye."
and totally ignored that idiot.
LOL k quite childish but yeah.

then later, i was sitting down at my counter using my hp cos i was bored.
and a kaypoh uncle came and "aren't u a promoter...shldnt u be promoting instead of playing game?"
i was shocked actually. at first i thought it was the store's manager...but then the kaypoh was in plain clothes.
so i just replied, "i'm checking stocks with my company."
shld have added, "what concern issit of yours anw? my manager oso didn't say anything about it. MYOB"


haix, i want a faster brain!


oh and i was super hungry while working, so i bought a packet of ikan bilis to munch on.
then after paying, the cashier scribbled something on my receipt.

i'm guessing it's her name but i rly can't decipher what it is.
she was quite gdlooking i guess, only that she had thick layers of make up on.
but what would a gay guy know hehehe.
luckily i looked at it only after i had taken my stuff and left.
wouldn't know how to react.
maybe i could just have said, "i'm gay?"
girls are still a mystery to me.
i do not have a girl-bff as i was frm an all-boys school.
not sure how it'll be when i finally have them as classmates...maybe i'll be their sister LOL JK

why can't i attract guys instead hehehhehe.

flaking

went swimming with a few classmates today.
including d1, d2 and j2.

wooohooo~~!
hotness attack!

hahhahahahha.

i hate swimming when the sun is up!
i think i can't get sunburnt anymore cos i'm freaking tanned.
why does some people's tan fade so easily while mine would refuse.
is my body too conducive for melanin growth or smth?

and yes, even after applying sunscreen, my skin would still peel and flake.
as if i'm moulting.
like a snake changing it's skin.
LOL

i really hate it.
next time, i'd land myself a wealthy guy.
who has an apartment with a large indoor swimming pool.
hehehe.
nah i'll just earn big bucks and buy myself one.
*floating sandcastles*


and even AN has a bf alr.
why am i left on the shelf?
yeah i dun wanna take care of 27 cats as well! :X
dear dear where are you? LOLOLOL

k this is all that's on my mind right now...as tuls suggested.
still such a sucky post...just wait till i find my bf!
it'll be even more diabetic than ever!
*more sandcastles*

insipid

i think i've been on holidays for too long.
when i was in school, i'd at least have a few people i'd ogle at.
my heart would flutter, wishing that we're a couple.

right now, i've totally no one to crush on.
no one catches my attention.
nothing.
pure emptiness.

it's definitely not normal for me since during my high time, i've crushed on 4 ppl.
and this explains the lack of updates as well.
so yeah sry for the dry period...
wonder how ppl like tuls manage to find smth to blog abt everyday.

Likin Big Dicks

love it.
cant play it when my family is awake though.
i need a lappie!

hope i wont be too disappointed tml.
wish me luck :P

fragility

"everyday that i am still living is a gift from god," said jojo's mom when she was fighting cancer. it had debilitated her so much that she's just skin and bones. despite this, she lived everyday cheerfully. her strength is truly admirable. i wasn't close to her though, but i last saw her when she came to my house to pass something to my parents. for a patient that underwent chemotherapy, i guess she was surprisingly vivacious.

jojo's only 18; his brother 15. i cant imagine how difficult it was for them to go through this. from what i've heard, for a period of time, they actually tried to live as though she wasn't there, so that they will learn to be independent of her. it wasn't only until one of their church friend told jojo that it wasn't right, they should be cherishing the days that she's still around instead, that they actually got closer.

i am not exactly close to jojo either. we can talk well when we meet up during special occasions, but do not usually keep in contact.

i first got wind of the news when i came back home from chalet after i slept. i woke up around 8 and my sister broke it to me. initially, i thought she was just pulling my leg as she was smiling slightly. i don't know why she smiled. perhaps because she's still a child, the thought of death doesn't scare her.

i wanted to go down right after i learnt about it. but it was late and i had to work the next day. couldn't sleep that night. accompanied my parents when they drove my siblings to school in the morning. slept for a few hours when i returned home after breakfast and left for work.

it was finally time for me to knock of and i rushed down to the place. my parents were already there. there were familiar faces, of relatives we see only on those occasions as well. greeted them and looked for jojo. he was actually joking with his church friends when i saw him. he stood up and we walked towards each other...i hugged him. he was still smiling. then, he brought me to the coffin and i peered through the glass. he smiled and said, 'she's beautiful, ain't she?"

i didn't know what to reply...but only smiled back. then, i noticed that she was so thin that her skin seemed to cave in at temples.

after that, i heard him conversing with a friend. that friend was saying, "i think it happened at the right time. you'll grow to be more matured." i wanted to slap him right then and there. i know he was just trying to encourage him. but hello, there is NEVER a right time to lose someone you love.

i stayed for the night, since the cremation was the next day. didn't really get to talk to him individually as there was an auntie (unrelated. their church friend) who offered to stay. so ironic since none of our relatives stayed
maybe bcos the father didn't want to bother anyone.

they took turns to watch over the body. his dad went up and slept through the night. for the first part of the night, it was just that auntie, jojo and i. he was actually telling us how his brother doesnt seem to be able to express his feelings. everytime he asks him how he felt, he'd give placetory replies or say "idk".

he went up when he was tired. his bro came down a little later. after talking to his bro, i realised he actually feels lonely. his bro was busy with his studies and work, his dad only comes home when he needs to do invoice. his mom was his company at home. i only got the chance to highlight this to him after the cremation when all of us returned to the void deck.

the service before the cremation was fucked up. sorry, i don't mean to insult any religion. but i seriously feel there is a right place and time for everything. evangelising during a funeral service is barely acceptable. but evangelising to the point that the schedule was delayed is purely imbecilic. we could only use the service room for a certain time as there were others scheduled to use it as well. except for one eulogy delivered by jojo, the whole service time was wasted for evangelism.

we were actually called "sinners" throughout the time. i'm sorry that i do not share your faith that it's sinning just because you do not believe in him.

in the end, they persisted in finishing the reading instead of allowing us time to pay our last respects to her. we did not even get to place flowers on her coffin before it was sent in.

the only good thing about it was that i was so distracted being angry at them that i only teared for the early part of the service. 5 pieces of tissue. i think i cried more than jojo did. i dont know why, i just kept thinking of how they'll miss her and i'll start. :X





i think i shall end it here abruptly as idk how to continue.

really hope they will have the strength and courage to get through this. mourn through this period and always keep her close to their hearts as they move on with life.

truth or truth

i've never dared to play truth or dare with my classmates.

we decided to go on a midnight cycling trip but we had to wait for one of our classmates to learn how to cycle.
call me evil, but i think it was so inconsiderate of him to want to join us.
he should know his limits.
for someone who isn't sporty, who has never cycled before, he wants to join us and cycle a distance of 13 km? (including return journey. i was the fourth to return...was actually third but some idiot took a shortcut and overtook me grrrrrr. we were neck to neck throughout the journey and i purposely kept insufficient space enough between the second guy so he could not cut me but ROWR)
furthermore, we had to wait for around an hour for him to finally master it.

meanwhile, most of my classmates started playing truth or truth.
i have never dared to play "truth" games as i dread them asking THAT question.
empty and another friend didn't play for the same reason.
yes, we're bitchy in class and it inevitably arose suspicion.
it was quite a torture for us as since we weren't playing, we weren't allowed  near their circle.
it's hell for gossip junkies like us.
grrrrr.


so yeah, how would u handle such a question.
technically, it wouldn't be considered a lie if i said "no".
since i've liked girls before...i'm bi?
but i'd very much prefer guys tyvm..

IRC (sgboy)

i've been meaning to do a post on irc but have always procrastinated it.
so yeah, you know, irc is the internet chatroom thingy, similar to icq right?
or issit the same thing? idk lah...go ask some geeks

anw, i know it's damn outdated alr...
but before GRINDR became ubiquitous in the aj (gay) community, it was one of the most popular platform for us to know other people.
so yeah, i've added like hundredss of ppl from there to a fake msn, some of which are really nice people and i've met around 6 of them for normal reasons, had a few flings, became online friends with some,and the rest are just plain bullcrap.

but due to various reasons, i only talk to 2 on regular basis now.
pathetic right?
one went to army.
three of whom i stopped talking to cos of exams and never instigated another convo cos i think it'll be awkward. (P and two other guys)
i added AN's friend and AN didnt even know he was aj. flirted, went to his hse, kissed and slept with him (not sex as in really sleep), told him he had super bad breath and dress sense (LOLOLOL it's true. AN wld always tell him to drink water. HE ACTUALLY DENIED THAT HIS BREATH STINKS WTF) and he never talked to me again.


anw, there are all kinds of people on trevvy IRC.

but it seems like everyone of them would start off with "(mind) intro (pls)?"
it's the most idiotic thing ever.

if you want someone to take the trouble introduce themselves, can't you fucking instigate it by doing it yourself first?

how rude can ppl get online?
some are even worse, after you replied them with your intro, they will dive right into asking you for sex without giving theirs.

anyhoo, here are some of the types i hate to encounter.
(i wouldnt mind 1 when i'm horny but at other times i hate it)



1) fun-seekers (most prevalent)

the first thing you'd notice when u log on to sgboy is that the walls will be flooded with guys seeking fun.
some of which would go...

<pgboy> anyone with place in punggol/sengkang wanna have fun??

<suck4indi> ani horni indians wanna get sucked good now ?,?.??.??

        <ghost> any boys want to pl,ay with my BIG c,ock? i p,ay you! 

<Love21> any teens in yishun? can let me suck? or sell me their underwear?

real samples. the latter two are obviously paedophiles.
those who offer to pay are usually fat old DOM (dirty old men) who wld  like to fuck teen guys but have no qualifications (in terms of looks and fitness) and thus have to resort to supplying what guys around my age want most. MOOLAH!
it's so tempting okay. someone actually offered $1000 per session.
how many hours would i have to stand to get that amount?!





2) "BROS" aka over-friendly ppl

(9:27 PM) Ken: u got photo ma or facebook again ?

(11:18 PM) Ken: so bro

what u doing now ?

(11:19 PM) lmo: sry

watching drama

(11:19 PM) Ken: oh ic.. so now can't chat ?

(11:19 PM) lmo: yeah sry

ttys

(11:20 PM) Ken: when more free msg me

;)

i really cant stand ppl who go around "hey bro" here, "yo bro" there when i barely know!
i'm really not the "bro bro" kind of person so don't ever do it to me, thanks.
hmmm come to think of it i wldnt mind if you "hey sis!" LOL JK.
but i call siao eh "jie jie" cos of his name and to remind him that he's OLD (24).
buahhahahaha





3) ppl with low self esteem

(7:50 PM) Autumnus Pestile: aiya its okay

you can call me

Kana Aeroplane Anthony

or KAA for short

(7:50 PM) Autumnus Pestile: wait i should probably insert an N there

(7:50 PM) lmo: i rather call u bla

(7:51 PM) Autumnus Pestile: Kana Aeroplane N-lessly Anthony

KANA for short.

LOL

(7:51 PM) Autumnus Pestile: why bla

such a bad name

(7:52 PM) lmo: Boh Liao Anthony

he kept complaining about people pangseh-ing him (standing him up).

i'm not surprised.

i was super lonely at that time so i entertained him for a while...

i even gave him my number.

after a while, i found him irritating and blocked him + deleted him off my phone contact list.

guess what, he sent his wishes during x'mas and new year even though i clearly rmb telling him the previous time he smsed that i am "michelle" and he got the wrong number LOL.

ok idk if this is considered evil but i cant stand guys like him.

they'll rant about how no guys want them cos of their looks and not do one thing to improve on it.

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(12:10 AM) URGH the sun is: eh lmo ur bee goin for ur concert?

(12:10 AM) lmo: i dun think so

i dun wan ask him lah he wldnt go de lor

(12:10 AM) URGH the sun is: hahas why not

(12:10 AM) URGH the sun is: even my concert my dear dun like but for me he wan go listen to my music

(stupid bitch trying to make me jealous while acting that he's concerned abt me)

(12:11 AM) lmo: o.0

haha

(12:11 AM) URGH the sun is: he wan see how great his dear (me) is

hahas

(12:11 AM) lmo: o.0

(12:11 AM) [Bam]: lols

i wan sucha nice dear too

(12:12 AM) URGH the sun is: hahas i oso nvr nice wad he know i like music and he wan support me

(12:12 AM) URGH the sun is: i oso wan support him in his fight by caring for him

(12:12 AM) lmo: haha

u all how long le?

(12:12 AM) URGH the sun is: 1 yr

(12:12 AM) lmo: o.0 wah

(12:13 AM) URGH the sun is: our love and the way we talk hor like we were forever or were tgt for them long le

(12:17 AM) URGH the sun is: i tgt with my lao gong, my lao gong dun even wan break from his gf luh even though he love me alot

he say cant have both meh!

(12:17 AM) URGH the sun is: i was like :'(8o|

(12:17 AM) lmo: omg

slap him

(12:18 AM) URGH the sun is: i wan to but my heart pain he love me alot i say must break the nxt time meet gona talk to him face to face abt this

(12:19 AM) lmo: but his gf longer than u?

(12:19 AM) URGH the sun is: er yea but i better he say

(12:19 AM) lmo: -__-

then y dun wan break

(12:19 AM) URGH the sun is: yea luh i wan smack him or kill myself le

(12:19 AM) lmo: lol dun kill urself

smack him

(12:19 AM) URGH the sun is: cause we goin to get "married" so yea i wan him break

(12:20 AM) URGH the sun is: i dun wan smack bahs i wan him to myself i love him far to much le till can die

  

wouldn't you just end it with your bf if he did this?

which idiot would shortchange himself by sharing your man?!

and guess what, i actually intro-ed him to my ex.

and right after that, in another convo, he was hitting on him!

asking him if he'd like to kiss and wtv....

soooooooo gross!

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wow i found these samples in just one month's msn chat log.

i wasted so much time talking to these junk ppl! :X

well, of course, there are awesome ppl whom i've met.

is there a way to just filter off junk ppl and add the awesome ones directly? 

a dream is a wish your heart makes

credits to panda for finding this video:



















 


they say if you dream hard enough, someday it'll come true.
it has come true for so many people, including the couple in this video.

their love and happiness is so palpable.. who wouldn't be touched.
i love the way they held onto each other's hand when the white shirt guy was thanking his mate for all that he has done.

it's so moving!
i wanna attend a ceremony like this. erhem hint tuls hint bubu.
LOL
HAPPY FIRST YEAR ANNIVERSARY TO BOTH OF YOU :)

k i've had enough chick-flick for the day.
imma going to pack for chalet b4 going to bed.
gonna mia again for the next few days.
i scheduled a post though, so do come back hehehehhehe.
tata till then

taking things for granted?

was talking to my colleague today...we were talking abt our education.
i realised she started work right after secondary school...and her current pay is quite miserable.

me: have you thought of finding another job then?

her: yeah, but it's difficult. i'd have to compete with all the poly and uni students. and they all have that piece of paper...
me: oh. er nvm lah jy lor. try and save up and study next time?
her: hahaha save? i've been saving for a long time. as to furthering studies, i guess it's only for those with decent family conditions. i really do not dare to think abt it.

i was at a total loss of words.
i really didnt know what to say...
everything that came out of my mouth sounded naive and ignorant.
whatever i could have said would just sound like a mockery to her?

i'm really glad that i do not really have to worry about my tuition fees.
or at least not yet...

my results are coming out soon.
it's such a torment.
i'm confused about choosing the right path to further my studies now...

a new decade

people, it's a brand new decade.
you guys have to be happy and smile always yeah!

i'm just gonna set 2 resolutions this year:
1) lose weight. 60 kg here i come. :P (this has been on my list since forever ago but oh well. i really hope it wont appear ever again.)
2) find "the one"


may the new year bring precious experiences and people while we cherish valuable memories from the past.