falling carebear. TOO CUTE!

capricorns...PR?

i think capricorns make the worst friends ever.

you just wouldn't know what we are thinking of.

whether we are really true friends, or are we just there.

so yep im in this clique in sch and we created a facebook group.

however the group was created after an outing, which included certain people who aren't that close.

there's this childish guy, let's call him jerry. 

don't like him cos of all his antics; he's those always act high kind of person.

he isn't evil or anything, just too hyper and overbearing for me...

a few other people in the group find it that way too, so yeah he's isnt even supposed to be in the group and is there just because of that outing.

and guess what, he is "bros" with bob, the guy whom i managed to ply open last time but he got closer to jerry and this other guy.

so supposedly, if you are "bros", you wouldnt leave him in lurch. you wont condone him being outcasted by your friends, would you?

today during lunch, we blurted out that we kicked jerry out of the group.

bob didn't seem to care at all.

like seriously, what kind of a person is he -.-

jem really treats him like a bro, cos jem's a much simper person...and yet bob doesn't reciprocate.

so apparently he is just forming fragile relations with everyone, appeasing the people he's spending time with.

i do PR a bit at times too, but i'd never allow my friends to be outcasted from a group like that.

i will not PR with my friends! 

(i wouldn't refer to my true friends as bros because i think that term is overused and dead. it doesnt have the  meaning that it's supposed to convey. every tom, dick, and harry will just randomly call you bro when they need your help in the working environment. and all the "bros" i see in sch are really just act high MCPs with nth better to do"

really, capricorns' defenses are freaking hard to get past...

and we chose our friends very carefully...only those whom i allow through are considered real friends.

i've a very clear line that distinguishes friends from acquaintances, and i'd make where we stand clear to you as well.

i just cannot stand how bob is able to call jem "bro" all the time, but doesn't do a single shit when he's kicked out of the group.

such a fucking PR asshole.

and i've to act like i don't care about this cos he is still in our clique. -.-

hot

saw it on tumblr but cant reblog haha :)

i think this pic is juz too sexy!

the scene itself.

making out in the middle of nowhere...

and im not exhibitionistic LOL.

x'mas is coming...stay merry! :)

eyecandy #122454253

he's like in my class so i see him everyday.

ultra drawn to his aloof character.

i love analysing people.

the more reserved you are, the more interested i get.

whatever it is, i really just can't figure him out.

and idk how to get close to him.

i think he alr suspects that i am gay, not that it's rocket science.

he's homophobic and i don't want him to be creeped out more than he alr is.

still, he's like my current obsession.

i wanna lift his veil and marry him see his through colours.

~

this other guy in class.
i got him to open up to me before.

he was being super cynical at that point of time, with the people arnd him.
furthermore, he had a crush on this girl...who used to be close to me.(another drama)


then a few days later, he just left me aside and got close with these 2 guys, both mcps who are kinda irritating.
fine.
obviously i got jealous and left him alone.

a few weeks later, that girl told me that he confessed and i was just shocked.
i advised him against it previously cos she's alr having a scandal with this other guy, whom she is dating now (or they might have broken up...idk)
and he confessed in such a manner that it was pressurrissing for that girl (not that we were still close then but it is just damn childish). it went smth like "...so if you dont see me next sem in this course...you know why"

impression of him just died there and then.

now, i sense that he's going through some rough patch.
asked him what's wrong and he didnt answer.
so be it.
then my other friends told me to dig out what's his problem.
but urgh.
idk how.

why is my sch life so dramatic. :(
dramas are damn fun to watch, but irritating when it happens arnd u!

small dicks

sry if i offend any1 of you...

but it's really damn sian when u're have fun with sum1 who has a small dick.
even if it is juz jo...
i would love to grab something substantial you know.
but no, i've to always meet ppl with small ones.
which is a super turn off!

a friend and i were being random in class, was telling her nxt time b4 she marries sum1, she shld have sex or at least make out n feel the size of that potential husband first...
can u imagine marrying sum1 and realising that it is puny...
and u'd have to resign to having bad sex for the rest of your lives?
imo, pre-marital sex isn't that bad if proper precautions are taken!


im imagining how i will slut out to find out my future bf's size b4 committing to a rls.
i know it's damn superficial...but sex is of huge importance in any rls.
and bad sex would only cause resentment and lust for better ones, no?

happy day

went for an outing earlier on with my friends...
really love them lotsa!

some halloween outing!
had helluva fun!

went into this haunted hse and this real good-looking guy friend was scared...
so he grabbed our hands (another guy to his right) and walked.
he gets angsty when he's scared...and wld scold the "ghosts".
totally cute!
but yeah, he's usually quite gung-ho and stuff...havent seen this side of him before and found it interesting.
normally, those mcps will never show this side of them, esp in front of girls (whom we were with).
they wld usually be damn act man and get on my nerves.
but he is juz so nice and cute!
not that i'm interested...but he is one of the best-looking person i know.


then there was this stranger behind us with his gf,
screaming his lungs out.
but when we got shocked and screamed, he wld tell us not to over-react.
(cos the "ghosts" could only choose to either jump in front of us or them)
like hello!
stupid loser.
if i were his gf i'd juz hide my face.
damn xiasuay.



~


recently there's this guy who finally interests me again.
the crushing period is finally back.
i've lost that feeling for so long, it now seems kinda strange.

we met an event and he asked me out first (as friends) but things i cldnt make it.
then after that i've been the one initiating...the convos, asking if he'd wanna go out and stuff.
but we r now bz with sch so it's difficult!
and he'd go game halfway when we're talking...
:(

but yeah i'm thinking too much abt this.
let's hope the crush wld fade soon, esp if he isnt interested or even gay at all.
how...
i'm glad that i can finally crush again but i don't want it to overwhelm me!

i shall stop initiating convos and hopefully he'd pick up the slack.
 i'll play by ear :)


~


i am damn dumb when i'm crushing on sum1.
will long for him to talk to me first.
block and unblock him on msn in hope he'd notice i'm on9.
so dumb.
so loser :X

at least cock-sucking you can prove!

god he speaks so well!!!

“Mommy, they are just like me.”

saw this on tumblr and had to reblog it.
yeah back continue missing me peeps LOL.
will check back soooooooon.
bloggers layout has apparently changed. o.0
oh yeah and altho i stopped watching glee, i still think blaine is like mad-fucking-cute-and-handsome-and-smexy <3.

“Mommy, they are just like me.” 

My oldest son is six years old and in love for the first time.  He is in love with Blaine from Glee. 

For those who don’t know Blaine is a boy…a gay boy, the boyfriend of one of the main characters, Kurt.

This isn’t a ‘he thinks Blaine is really cool’ kind of love.  It is a mooning at a picture of Blaine’s face for a half hour followed by a wistful “He’s so pretty” kind of love.

He loves the episode where two boys kiss.  My son will call people in from other parts of the house to make sure they don’t miss his ‘favorite part.’  He’s been known to rewind it and watch it over again…and force other to, as well, if he doesn’t think people have been paying enough attention.

This infatuation doesn’t bother me or his father.  We live in a very hip-liberal neighborhood, many of our friends are gay, and idea of having a gay son isn’t something that bothers either of us.  Our son is going to be who he is, and it is our job to love him.  End of story.

He is also six.  Six year olds get obsessed with all kinds of things.  This might not mean anything at all.  We always joke that he’s either gay, or we have the best blackmail material in the history of mankind when he’s a 16 year old straight boy. (Take that naked bath time pictures!)

Then the other day we were traveling across the state listening to the Warblers album (of course), and in the middle of Candles, my son pipes up from the back seat.

“Mommy, Kurt and Blaine are boyfriends.”

“Yes, they are,” I affirm.

“They don’t like kissing girls.  They just kiss boys.”

“That’s true.”

“Mommy, they are just like me.”

“That’s great, baby.  You know I love you no matter what?”

“I know…” I could hear him rolling his eyes at me.

When we got home I recapped this conversation to his Dad, and we stood simply looking into each other’s eyes for a moment.  Then we smiled.

“So if at 16 he wants to make a big announcement at the dinner table, we can say ‘You told us when you were six.  Pass the carrots’ and he’ll be disappointed we stole his big dramatic moment,” my husband says with a laugh and hugs me.

Only time will tell if my son is gay, but if he is I am glad he’s mine.  I am glad he has been born into our family.  A family full of people who will love and accept him.  People who will never want him to change.  With parents who will look forward to dancing at his wedding.

And I have to admit, Blaine would be a really cute son-in-law.

(via pinkpanthers)

straightie

there's this guy in my class whom i came out to.
i guess it's the best decision i've made this year.

he is so much nicer to me after i told him.

but i still don't get the logic.

he was afraid of me when he suspected i was gay.
but when i confirmed that i was, he just got nicer.

anyhoo, it is damn funny when i'm with him.
so easy to make him awkward.

we went shopping.
i just pointed to some random guy and said, "i think he's super cute eh!!!!"

he didnt know how to reply.

he was even more lost when i added, "i think he is gay!"

:D

oh and it is hilarious when i decide to freak him out.

*complained about how cold it was and touched him*
him: your hand not cold what...
me: i know, i just wanted to touch you! :P
*he stared with the shock and "r u serious" face*

fun stuff :D

i will disappear for at least a week. maybe more :D

hihihihi

ok so i've lost my motivation to blog long long posts abt how boring my life is.
sorry abt the lack of updates.
here's just some random jumbled thoughts.

~

anw, up till now...there's still no guy in my life.
where are u baby?

~

and i think i'm a super boring person who's damn bad in communication.
i wanna talk to my eyecandy...but i cant find any topics to talk abt :(
and i feel inferior to him hahahhahaa.
he's mixed-blood. i just have a thing for ppl with mixed-blood.
i was freaking out cos i was so stressed up and i just ranted on msn to him, he reassured me with a damn long reply saying how he believe i could do it.
but he's so popular...i feel insignificant.

i think i should juz go on singing "Cooler Than Me- Mike Posner".
not many ppl can mak me feel this way though.
i dont know why im fussing over him when i know it is impossible since he told me how he is plotting to get the girl he wants.
a guy who strategises, how cute hahahhahaa.

~

it is raining now.
cold.
i wish someone would lie beside me and hold me from behind.

STRESSED!!!

only one month has passed since i've started school and i've already been sleeping late cos of projects! (Y)

I HAVE ZERO TIME MANAGEMENT :(

tests are coming in soon and i havent revised like OMFG!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

ok the only reason i'm here is cos i really cant take it anymore and need a place to vent.

LALALAAALAALLALALALALALA.

I AM SO TIRED :(

GGGRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!

THAT CUTE GUY I LIKE IS STRAIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AND HE TOLD ME ABT THAT GIRL HE LIKES!
WHOM HE CONFESSED TO BUT HAS NOT ACCEPTED HIM YET COS SHE DOESNT WANNA COMMIT YET.

I'VE BEEN SINGING TEARDROPS ON MY GUITAR+ YOU BELONG WITH ME.

LOL.


he's so sweet, expressive <3 and tactful!
aaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
i actually got to know him on the bus and i bu-yao-lianly asked for his number cos we take the same bus to sch :D

I WANT HAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA.

ok this post is kinda crazy.

AND OMG OH YAH I TOLD A STRAIGHT GUY IN CLASS I AM OMGOMG.
luckily he is fine with it!
i think we even got closer after that ahhahahahahahah :D
ok im gonna go back to do work :(
i know i owe posts.
love ya ppl! <3

go!!!

i am thinking of going this year.
a friend of mine is going with his clique and i am just going to crash.
hope they dont cancel on the last minute.=

im trying to convince other ppl to go! :X

any1 wanan go with me? hahahahahahahahah
TULS N GANG COME TO SG FOR THIS!!!! <3 BUHAHAHAHAHAH!




i will update properly soon ok.
holidays are coming soon! :D
hope i have time then :X

sorry for being mia

hihi did u miss me?
school started and everything was a blast.
didnt have time to update.

there are many things that i wanna blog about.
i shall list and owe them as future posts...

1) girls make awesome friends!
2) i came out to a girl in class
3) cute senior omgomg
4) girls trying to change me! HAHAHAHA
5) hair + superficiality

kk that's all for now.
we'll see.

this week has been real hectic.
i've gone through like 3 interviews alr.
one more next week.
and i really hope i get through my scholarship interview...there would be another round after that.
ahhhhhhhh.
i want my moolah!

and cos we can use lappies during lectures/ tutorials, i havent been paying attention in class.
tetris is still my favourite past time.
lol.
haix. im so behind in work alr!
:(

hokkien

my hokkien's not awesome...but passable enough to communicate with my grams. :)

i was very tempted to talk to my orientation friends in hokkien...but most of them do not understand it.
there was this ah lian there...her speaking style is quite infectious and i sorta caught it.
talking to ah lians are awesome...they just speak their mind and u wont have to be wary at all times if they harbour any ulterior motive.
they're easy to read and are very entertaining.
make awesome chat buddies!
wish everyone would be as harmless/ non-scheming like them.


hokkien style umbrella:


love this ttm!
wa eh hor sua. hor hor hor!

it has a mysterious calming effect on me.
my real mother tongue...nothing is more soothing than that.

started school!

sch started on mon for me.
quite tired after orientation so nv update lalala.

anw hmmmmmm my gaydar never *ding ding ding* yet.
super not fun.
dun believe so many students non are gay.
acting damn good nia...hahahahaha.

suspect this senior of mine is one though,
hahahaha damn shuai lah! *heartmelts*
he's like one of the overachievers.
gpa close to four + numerous ccas + shuai + hot + tanned.
i want! tyvm :)

the only thing is that he's shorter. hahaha

i think i'd find out by asking if he's attached and blah blah blah.

he initiated a convo with me today lah...he's like one of the in-charge of the camp and noticed i was damn tired.
*honoured*
altho a sian face is my normal expression.

so yep, my orientation group ppl are really nice.
not the forever damn high kind but definitely not dead.
but idk any1 else from my course yet :X
wannna see if there's any hahahaha.

how i wish my gaydar was stronger!!!

finally served someone fabulous!

it's about time i met someone fabulous through work, having worked as a promoter for the past few months.
granted, majority of the people who frequent supermarkets are married uncles with a beer belly and kids...there shld still be fabulous ppl who shopping there.

alike today, i actually served someone so flamboyant that everyone in the room will know he is gay straightaway.
he was with this omg-so-cute friend whom i just kept staring at.
i guess he came earlier to look first and reserved something with the earlier-shift auntie.
so yep the auntie reserved the product under their names: ken and oscar.
i'm thinking the flamboyant QueenB person is called oscar cos someone that fabulous doesnt fit a simple name such as ken.
so yep i went into the store and retrieved what they reserved.

i didn't know how to act around oscar.
he is the awesome kind of bitch u'd wanna be bffs with.
i wanted to be like, "hey i am lalala too" but there was this other auntie who can hear every single word i utter.
so i tried to tone it down very deliberately. i get all weird when i control my fabulousness intentionally, pulling down my voice (yes i did that in the video tuls. that isnt my real voice!) and being aware of my hand gestures.
but i guess oscar's experienced enough and has a good enough gaydar to sense that i kept staring at ken the whole time.
cos ken is just perfect eyecandy material!!!

so after i came out with their items, ken was looking at other things at another lane.
oscar, with the intention of teasing/testing me i think, said, "我的朋友讲你很帅 (my friend says you're handsome)".
i was so embarrassed i didn't know what to say and i just gave a rather perfunctory reply "他也是 (he is too)".
i would have blushed! but i think tanned ppl cant blush. haahahaha.
he laughed. and went to tell his friend what i said.
ken gave the "wtf?!" reaction and i just laughed at him.

later on, oscar made some sexual innuendoes when i was teaching him how to operate the item. "为什么插不进去的?! 我不会插啦...插插插 (idk how to make it enter lah)"
i helped him with it and he said "还是你比较会插! (you are still better at entering)"

i could have taken advantage of the whole situation and flirted with both of them.
but i'm just too shy to get into it.
regret it so much lah!
could have made a new bitch friend and perhaps a boyfriend at the same time lah!
hhahahahhahahahhaha.
i'd definitely let my true self come out if i see them again. :D
IF being the keyword. haix.
why am i so shy :X will learn from this mistake and flirt all out shld another opportunity like this arise.
oh and i can blame the other customers also. another one was waiting for me so i couldnt have had a proper convo with them either.


oh and from their accent, they are malaysians.
anyone knows them? hahhahaha.
they are about 18-20 at most i think.
dont really think they are a couple lah...there interaction and dynamics doesnt suggest so.
and ken may, just may be straight.
gaydar's off recently.
actually nah i still think he is gay, it'll be such a waste if he's straight hahhahahahaa.

ktv again!

hahhaha yeah went to ktv with hfc.
told him that i wanted to shop initially...
but i just wanted to ktv again suddenly.
i guilted him into agreeing even though he was really reluctant coming up with excuses abt tests and all.
i'm crazy and bitchy like that :D

we both have similar taste in music and i know almost every song he likes and vice versa.
there are exceptions of course.
like how he finds "Born This Way" horrible. rowr!
(sidenote: isn't born this way banned in malaysia? i heard it playing in a shopping centre in jb leh)

anyhoo it was really awesome to have a ktv session with a close friend.
cos he knows how i cant sing and doesnt rly mind. just kept on laughing but wtv lah.
not like it is his first time hearing me sing.
and cos we can get super hyper tgt, we were literally screaming at "high" parts of the session.
i cant get this high with other ppl cos i'll be worrying how they'll think im crazy and stuff.
but with ur bff, that's when ur true colour shows. hahahhahaha


we went crazy after singing not myself tonight.
followed by hollaback girl and then party people right after!
all awesome party songs!
we managed to clear the rap part of party people perfectly (with the help of the original singers of course) even though the last time we heard it was ages ago.
i loved the fergie's rapping parts so much that i kept practising it last time.
"all of you haters can kiss a behind. specifically speaking i'm talking about mine!"


session ended off with veronicas- untouched.
wooohooo!
kk i know these songs are a little outdated...but that was the time when we had the time to get crazy and sing those songs in school/ over the webcam.


and any singing schools need people for before/after advertisements?
i am the perfect before candidate! off key in every note i sing :D
sponsor my lessons and i dun mind being filmed throughout them hahhahahahhahaa!







yep she sounds better than me so u can imagine hahhahaha.
i showed somene how i sound and he kept laughing throughout lah! wtf!
right until he said gdnite still making fun of me :(
rowr! evil slut hahhahahha,

train to johor bahru

the train wasn't as vintage as i expected, so yeah quite disappointing :X

it had air-con!

i was thinking it would be those coal-powered ones with steam coming out of the front.

actually idk how it was powered.

 

so yeah we went to our friends hse at 7.

he was still sleeping WTFBBQ!

panicked. spammed his phone. he had like 40+ missed calls at least i think

but to no avail.

taxi-ed to tanjhong pagar train station at like 7.20am, begging the taxi driver to try his best to reach there before 8.

fortunately, the jams were not that bad and we managed to reach there in time.

got new tickets and set off.

waited city square for that person to join us...he called us while we were in the cab and he wldnt have made it in time.

so he took bus or wtv there.

kinda sad cos he's to cover the wasted transport costs.

went shopping...then taxi-ed to jusco permas jaya (i think) to have lunch at a&w!!!

too bad the a&w there isn't that great...they said the ice-cream has not been delivered yet!

so we had ours with honey and butter -.-

i found the root beer diluted oso.

or maybe the reason why i found a&w was so great was cos the last time i had it in sg, i was 5 or so and couldnt tell tasty from nasty.

but impossible cos i've tried it in other countries and they tasted great too.

was led by the nose throughout the trip.

didnt know where i was going cos i had malaysians with me who knew their way around...they'd just tell the cab where to go and i'll be sleeping on the journey.

the cabs are so cramped!

four of us sharing a cab and the three of us at the cab were no where near petite so we were like squeezed uber tightly.

and there was so little leg space that i had to remain in the same position throughout the journeys!

wonder how tall ppl in mly survive the cab rides :X

anw it wasn't all that bad lah, cos the guy i sat beside was kinda cute :D:D

hahahahaha

went to giant and shopped too.

saw this there...

so ridiculous lah! what does "I" stand for? IPHONE! -.-

went to a friend's colleague's place...

saw a baby snake lah omg!

it was right at the gate and even though it is really tiny, we didnt dare to enter.

the owner assured us that small snakes are common and not dangerous but we still waited for it to glide away before entering :D

then saw something interesting that we don't have in sg.

lorry selling tilam!

hahaha. they had this loudspeaker that played a recorded track saying "tilam! tilam!" or smth.

damn cute!

reminds me of karang guni in SG.

had dinner @ kenny rogers.

i love their concept of being able to choose 3 side dishes!

i ordered as if i'm carb-loading for a marathon.

all major carbs! aromatic rice, potato salad, mac and cheese.

damn fat lah!

so yep, that's about it.

four of us hired a car home. $40 sgd. quite okay right?

 and lalala here are my hauls for the day!

spent about $80 sgd for the trip...including food and transport.

quite ok lah. not that big a damage since i was too tired to shop for clothes hahahaha.

 -hazelnut coffee from oldtown is like the best instant coffee ever!

i survived my previous schooling days with it and decided to load up since my sch's starting :(

 

love this preserved fruit thingy! have no idea what it is but it's delicious!

and the fried ikan bilis cracker thingy also! love love love! 

but it tastes sooo damn oily...guilty pleasure :)

tired

i've been awake for the past 30 hours or so i guess.
i was afraid i wouldn't be able to wake up at 5am in the morning so i decided not to sleep at all.
shall blog abt the jb trip tml.

right now, the anxiety of starting school in a whole new environment is kicking in.
i received calls from seniors/lecturers that informed me of orientaton details.
my lecturer even taught me how to access my school-based email so i can download details of the events.
i'm such a tech-no that i never knew outlook.com existed before she told me about it.
application for the scholarship has started.
i shall apply when school starts. so i'd have the required supporting documents ready.
i really hope i'd be able to clinch it.
but for that to happen, i'd have to be shortlisted and interviewed.
i have never been part of a formal interview before!
my leadership positons have all been bestowed upon me by mostly luck and a minute manipulation behind.
idk how to face a panel and not feel nervous.
i'd just have a freezed-smile on my face to divert their attention.
i'm actually scared again.
glad that my tireness will allow me to concuss soon...idk how i'd be able to fall asleep with these self-inflicted scares flowing through my head...
ttfn.

train

wooohoo imma sit on the train for the first time in my life tml.
the real tutu train. not mrt/lrt/airport express or wtv.

cos the one serving jb and sg is closing down soon...in july i think.
so yeah anyone from jb wanna receive me tml?
hold a with "LMO" on it...i'll be taking the first train.
hahhahahahha.
*conceited diva moment*
it feels good to have someone receiving u at the arrival hall ok!
i was so surprised to see a man holding a paper with my name on it after i touched down in my previous trip.
felt like some vip and i was ready to give the queen's wave when i realised anyone who hired a tour guide beforehand would receive the same treatment.
hahhaahahahaha.


anyhoo, i've always wanted to go on a train.
ever since i received that vision.
my classmates and i were playing this "hyperventilation game" where someone would breathe rapidly for a while and then hold his breath. another person will then push against his chest so he can't breathe or smth.
after a while, that person will faint.
i didnt believe it so i tried and tada i fainted for the first time in my life.
hit my head against the edge of a notice-board in the process which resulted in a baluku (bump). -.-
and i regain consciousness slapping the floor cos i felt someone slapping me in the face and i wanted to get revenge.


when i was out, i had this vision of me screwing with this effing-hot latino guy.
issit possible to remember sensations from visions/dreams?
cos i rmb it felt so great when we were fucking on a bed in a cabin of a train.
after the session ended, we were both so drained and i collapsed beside him and laid my head on his shoulder.
perfect romance movie/porn scene right?
and i got slapped awake right after that.
how irritating!


and yes, i realise that the chances of boarding a train with a latino in sg is close to zero.
much less sleeping with one in a ride that's merely an hour.
but still, maybe it'll come true in my future train rides.
think sleeping beauty..."i know you...a walked slept with you once upon a dream."

front seat or back seat?

i dont know the asnwer cos i hate physics tyvm :).

that wasnt in my syllabus either...i think.

i've always admired those enjoy physics.

it's so boring that i just wanted to die in physics lessons!

my teacher didn't help either.

and me being a night owl meant that i'd have to pull my hair, pinch my face and whatnot to stay awake while jigglypuff sang for that 45minutes.

on some days, it'd sing for 2 periods and that was when i'd definitely take a break n walk slowly to the restroom.

i believe most gays hate physics! hahaha

i've only met one gay engineer so far.

those gays i've talked to in engineering course hate it and was forced to be there cos their score couldn't qualify for other courses.

or maybe physics is just too boring that everybody hates it right right? :P

p.s. ok i admit i'm very biased against physics cos i wasted 4 years of my life on it. i deserve to slam it. :D

i

I LOVE Luanlegacy

hahhahahahahhahahaha.

Luanlegacy

he is just way too awesomely-bitchy! (Y)

MY FAVE OF ALL:

and if some ppl still do not understand what he's trying to say and go on hating, so be it and fuck yourself :) let's not waste each other's time and move on.

bus

i missed the freaking bus twice today. yay me!

was walking towardsd to bus-stop from home, and i had to cross a zebra-crossing then a traffic light to get there.
i have not even crossed the zebra-crossing yet when i saw my bus zoom by, alighted and left.

@$^%%$%!$!@#!$!@$


then when i was coming home from work, the bus just left the interchange when i got there!

^#$%@#$^$%&^$&^$& again.

and i decided to try and catch the bus at the next stop.
i've done that before when i studied at my previous school and never failed.
i caught the bus even though i lugged a humongous schoolbag behind.
and today, all i had was a pathetic slingbag with me and i COULDNT MAKE IT ROWROWROWR!
worse, after that sprint, my butt cramped!
and it was just what, 200m at most.
maybe it's really time to stop leading a sedentary lifestyle.


im gonna start saving up to learn driving too.
first thing to accomplish next year.
hard to imagine how someone with four legs like me will be on the wheels. :P
then again, even if i do have my driver's license...i wouldnt have my own car to drive and i'd still be stucked with public transport. :X
haix. they should invent something that will allow u to signal for the bus to stop from a distance so you can catch it!!!

age

you know, when talking to guys online, do u have an "age limit"?

like how old is too old?
or the other way around...some ppl wont talk to younger guys cos they think we're all immature and bratty etc.


personally, i wont talk to anyone younger than me cos well, i'm not that old myself and i find it will kinda be "paedophillic" to converse with someone at such a tender age.
i know the conversation doesn't have to be about sex and all, but somehow the ones i've talked to on irc would just steer it towards that dierection.
(and yeah i grew kinda sick of irc and have not used it since forever.
ok maybe i did go in once or twice to make fun of ppl when i was extremely bored.)


and i wouldn't really talk to guys who are above 30 cos experience tells me that there are limited common topics and the convo will go dry in no time.


of cos. these are just stereotypical observations and there are definitely (albeit rare?) exceptions out there.


i wouldn't care about age that much if he's an entertaining friend.
but isn't it weird to date someone old enough to be your father?
is age really just a number? o.0

Rebecca Black talks about "Friday"

i'm sure all of you have heard that song by now.

i personally do not hate it...kinda catchy with dumb lyrics that are so easy to rmb.
"yesterday was thursday....today it is friday"
"tomorrow is saturday and sunday comes afterwards..."


and the song is sooo happy!
"PARTYING PARTYING YEAH!"


treated it as fun, nonsensical song since i first heard it.
dont really understand why so many ppl hate it (dont kill me for saying this)






it wasn't until i saw this that i've bad impression of her.
seriously? how did iraq and afghanistan get involved in this song.
it comes from a really painful place? why does she look so happy in the mv?!

even if those parts of the songs were meant to be metaphorical, why can't they just make a dull plain song that reveals the intended meaning clearly instead of trying to be creative and hide the meaning in a happy song like this.


i highly doubt that this "greasy pop song" was meant to encompass so many hidden meanings.
and she sounds so bitchy (bad kind of bitch) in the video!

i appreciate it so much more as a "greasy pop song" tyvm.

don't dish out what you can't take

don't you just hate it when imbeciles talk behind your back?

i just arrived at work and decided to rest in the storeroom since there was no customers.

then this pair of idiotic staff came in as well. (they are sorta like outcasts there. none of the staffs like them)
one of them muttered to the other before leaving, "that promoter ah...come to work first thing is to play games..."


i hate it when others talk bad abt me behind my back.
like hello, if you've got a problem with me, trash it out in front of me.
i'd respect you for that.

was so pissed off.
ended my game and went outside as well.
who was she to care if i was playing or not. my manger have not even forbidded me from doing so.
and she is just another lowly staff who's too kaypoh for her own good!

i waited for her to walk by...
stared at her and said, "yes lady boss. i'm out here alr. do u have any instructions for me?!"


she feigned ignorance...asking me why i was saying that to her.
kept denying and walked away.


and guess what, she complained to her manger later.
seriously, she's such a loser who cant fight her on battles.
and she's like at least 30 years older.
that manager is a classic too.
he reported it to my manager without even first asking me what had happened.
he happily believed her side of the story?!
i dont mind him complaining to my manager, but at least hear my side of it first?!


turned out, she really added salt and vinegar to her story.
saying that she was merely informing me there were customers asking abt my product (there was no one to serve when i went out lah!) and that i had shouted at her at the top of my voice.
please lah, i spoke to her outside of the storeroom. if i had raised my voice, customers would have long crowded around?!
and her manager was dumb enough to believe her story.


thankfully, mine knew me well enough that i wouldnt have retorted if she did not provoke me first.
i wasnt even reprimanded. he just told me to ignore her in future.



hate it when people seek help from a higher authority to settle their scores.
if she can't take it, dont talk bad about other ppl behind their back!
or at least be smart enough to make sure the victim doesn't find out.
furthermore, that remark was just meant as a warning for her to stfu.
i have not even started being mean lah -.-
don't mess with the wrong bitch if you can't handle it.

decisions

i've always made my own decisions in life.
my secondary school, the subjects to study, cca...i've never allowed my parents to make them for me.
not that they are that interested either.
the only thing they chose for me was my primary sch cos obviously i was too young.


as much as i love my freedome to make my own decisions,
it can be really frustrating if i've too much of a choice.
i would go through the bothersome process of weighing out the pros and cons, researching, seeking advice from seniors for the important ones.
however, more often than not, i would already know what i would choose in the end.


my most recent decision was my new school.
i was going against the wishes of my parents (esp my mom. we argued in the car until dad asked us to end it there and not bring the matter up again), all of my close friends chose to do a levels, i was the only one in my class who chose to pursue a diploma :X


i think the only reason i was "seeking advice" was to prepare them for my decision.
i knew i wasn't going to accept their protests.
it isn't like i made my choice ignoring the negatives.
i knew how they were going to convince me otherwise simply because i have already had the arguement with myself.
their well-intended persuasion will always be rebutted with my well-rehearsed justification.


and of course, i love it when people support my decision.
i would have someone to blame if things don't work out in the end.
as tempting as that sounds, i wont resort to that lah.
i would argue with my supporters also actually and try to see if they've any solutions to overcome the negatives.


i guess what i'm trying to say is that usually, one would have made their minds up before "seeking advice" unless that person has not done sufficient homework himself.
then he'd just be a time-waster who allows others to make decisions for him cos he's too lazy to contemplate himself.


having to hear opposing views can be stressful.
but why should one be so caught up in caring about others' views and give up what one wants to pursue?
it is just foolish to "go crazy" and "feel suicidal" just because you're in a dilemma and everyone's going agaisnt your wishes, right hfc?

Jal Joshua

how do i say this and not sound paedophilic...

he'll turn out to be real handsome!
just look at his loooooooong lashes!
jealous ttm.

the sharp chin, the double eyelids, the charm and confidence he exudes...
all the desireable features converging in one boy who will just make any girl's heart melt.

let's not forget his voice :X
eye and ear candy!

butch and HON

sooooo i was returning home from work via the mrt then bus.
went into the cabin and omg!
saw that hot old neighbour again lol!


but ah. it was just so super dao as usual.
i think he knows lah...gays arent that insensitive to ppl checking us out right.
i did not intend to be subtle either. though i was still afraid of staring right at him. rude?

and later, we boarded the same bus (like obviously lol.)
he was right in front of me, watching some cartoon i think.
gotta improve on my phone-screening speed :X

we sat in the same row, but at diferent side of the bus.
(idk the right preposition to use -.-)
like...i was on the right and he was on the left of the bus and the pathway is inbetween us.
anyhoo i guess if i had boarded a little later, the seats wld have been filled and i wld have a reason to sit beside him. then perhaps we wld talk?
but he appears to be those super dao kind so idk lah.

after i've sat down, this "cute guy" (yes again LOL) came and sat beside me.
he could have actually sat beside that hot old neighbour (HON) also but he chose me! WOOHOO!
lololol.
the only thing i cld have beaten HON at was my youth (and maybe my brown hair. dyed recently :P).
otherwise, how could italy have won six pecs?

and that "cute guy" sat in such a way that our arms were in contact throughout the journey.
when the bus was turning, i used it as an excuse to exert more force than usual on him to test water.
and surprisingly, he did not move his arm away.
if i were him, i wld have been kinda irritated and make a large movement when breaking the contact.
but our contact remained until he got up and alighted.

that was when i managed to get a closer look of him and realise that his features are exceptionally feminine.
idk why i didnt register that when i first looked at him.
perhaps it was all obscured by "his" manly actions.
it was either "he" really has feminine features...or that yours truly ate a butch's tofu today :)
way to go lmo!

i have decided to...

1) become a vegan.
2) abstain from sex till i am married.
3) turn straight and get married within 10 years.
4) not watch gay porn ever again but only straight ones.
5) not get turned on by dicks but pussies.
6) not watch any dramas anymore.
7) start smoking cos i think it's cool!
8) stop masturbating for good.
9) start going to church.
10) not create anymore lame april fool's posts next year.


~

i actually got pranked by some auntie at work today.
she was like..."aiyo u drop smth oso duno!".
-.-

rejection

k so a friend of mine has recently rejectted a classmate of his.
let's call my friend F and the reject R for short.


apparently R is the eyecandy of another friend.
but F find R kinda ugly...rated him 1 or 2 upon 10?
 (i'm 4 on that scale. erhem. wtf)


then the main reason F rejectted R was cos R is "niang" aka sissy.
so i was quite curious and erm, asked him to rate his niangness on the scale of 1-10. (10 being the niangnest)
he gave and 8.
i asked abt my then and i got a 9?!
WTFWTF LOL

F says
8
coz his niang a bit fail
like
a bit gross
not as natural as yours
his is a bit ew 

LMO says
-.-

F says
your's 9
haha
higher quality

LMO says
wat is natural
OMG
am i that niang
-.-
ahhhh
shit

F says
means he's damn niang but suck at it
ok lah you're not like THAT niang
but higher quality lol

LMO says
ok so the scale 10= most niang regardless of quality
his
and mine

it's ok
dun have to be pr

since when did u even care

F says
same rating lol

LMO says
-.-
sian

F says

in terms of quality you definitely higher haha

LMO says
not fun

F says

you should rate bitchiness!

his is like

9/10

your's is 8

ok no

7 

LMO says
WHY I LOSE
why
why
why

F says

lol

good wad. 

LMO says
rly ah
so bitchy= bad meh

F says

ya.

his bitchy is fucking annoying

your's is just bitchy

but nice

LMO says
lol kk thanks






this is soooo hilarious!
i'm not proud of my niangness...my mom told me to not be that sissy the other day wtf.
i dont know when i am lah ok.
not intentional one! sumpah!
but i get it if ppl dun like...fuck off and die :) lol
wait i couldnt have said that to my mom right...i just ignored her and walked away.

and for bitchiness, i used to think that it's a compliment.
that's how my clique used it anw.
somehow bitchiness was synonymous with eloquence + outspokenness.
so we'd use bitch differently in diff situations and at times it retains it's original meaning.
you know some ppl bitch without brains and complain abt every freaking shit there is.
those wld be the "bad bitches".

and R is a bad bitch! LOL



ok look where i've digressed to.


after F rejectted R, R became a bitter and couldn't get over it.
he asked F repeatedly to accept him but F really didnt want to and when i asked him why he will no give R a chance, he replied "he ask me then i must accept issit?!"
i was like "aiyah go and dig some gold and throw him away after that lah!"
cos apparently R told F that he wld buy things for him/pay for his meals etc if he accepts.
i dont get why rich ppl thinks they can buy others' feelings.


anyhoo, i must say i admire R for his courage to confess his feelings for F.
was explaining F how it must have been difficult for R to muster his courage to confess.
they are in the same class, if R was rejectted, it wld be uber weird for the rest of their schlife!

that being said, i cannot condone how R is such a soreloser.
i mean, after being rejectted, wld u still persist and irritate that person to death?
i'd be so embarrassed i dun think i'd talk to that rejecttor for a while lah!
soo buay paiseh one. offer monetary benefits somemore!
R shld rly learn to move on!


~

ttly unrelated but i saw this pic on trevvy and it is unequivocally HOT AS FUCK!

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attention whores

i don't understand why people would wanna use their facebook statuses to express their unhappiness and get so agitated/emo.


why must it be on a status page where everyone is forced to read abt how pathetic their life is or how unfairly they have been treated etc?
i get it if it's a one-off thing but when one is constantly complaining abt how fucked up their life is on their status, it's uber annoying!
create a freaking blog which people can choose not view.


who enjoys reading everyday abt how life is meaningless after they've been rejected, or how they just broke down and cried after they saw "her" name on the newsfeed.


it isn't mean to delete ppl of fb right?
not that i haven't done it to hardcore evangelists.

shopping trip

as i mentioned, i went for a 2nd short trip.
it was wit straight friends, who cant shop and i guess they werent really the right company for my intention of this trip.


we went for a week, and obviously i didnt plan to shop the whole time.
went to different tourist attractions for the first few days.
there would usually be time after each day for my shopping, which they would spend watching and listening to their ipods.
i asked them to return to the hotel first cos i rly didnt like the feeling of people waiting for you while you float down the aisles.
i dont know how gfs are able to shop with their bfs waiting outside the shop...you'd have to be rly thick-skinned to pull that off.
the same thing repeated on the 2nd last day, which i planned to be solely spent on shopping.
i was quite fed up cos i didnt force them to follow me and they were just standing there looking glum while i browsed.
so after a while, i told them to find something to do by themselves for the rest of the day and leave me to shop on my own.
i'm so glad they agreed.


my haul for the day: four pairs of shoes! :)
and a few pieces of clothings for myself and siblings.


i wanted to get this adidas jacket, but when i asked if there was my size, they told me it was for females.
quite disappointed since it was one of the nices, liked the colour of the stripes on the sleeves.


when i returne to the hotel, they were like wtf do u need so many shoes for?!
me: cos it's cheaper mah. and i only have two pairs at home. one is sports shoe and i always wear the other pair.


my first time going crazy splurging on shoes hahahaa.


i saw this pair of boots which i fell in love with immediately!
but it was $210 sgd?!

couldn't bear to buy.
anybody wants to sponsor? lol

clarks chilton.

p.s. i did make them wait unnecessarily though...when i needed toilet everyday after we had breakfast. idk wat's wrong with my digestive system...it only wants to work after i've had breakfast. they'd spend 20 mins or so wating for me to finish before the activities begins :X but idk why this only happens when i'm travelling? so irritating!

how to "get laid" in public toilets

i know my sluttiness cant be compared to people like tuls and i've only been cruised five times or so in public restrooms.
these are just some observations from my experiences.


1) be alert.
you would have to look out for unusual activities.

e.g. washing hands with soap repeatedly. then drying it with the handdryer, and then going into the cubicle and pluck out some toilet paper to wipe their hands.

all these actions are done to create the illusion that they have a legitimate purpose to be in the toilet.
they can't possibly remain in one doing nothing.

for me, when i sense something and want to remain in the toilet without looking out of place, i'd just keep combing my hair in front of the mirror while observing what he's up to.

the most ridiculous one i've met was in the swimming pool toilet. he was wearing shorts without underwear and sat on the bench cleaning his feet with tissue. i stood beside him to change and kept peeking inside. he was gladly exposing his balls for me to ogle anyway. didnt do anything in the end cos i was with my family LOL.



2) make eye contact and stare.
i guess if he's interested, he'd do the same and perhaps send a signal or two.



3) proceed to the urinal/ follow him to the urinal (optional...but this is usually what i did)
take a look at his package and return the favour.



4) into the cubicle!
if you like what you see at the urinal, proceed into the cubicle.
you've two choices i guess.
if you are daring enough, go into the same cubicle. preferably the handicap one cos it's bigger.
however, if you are afraid of getting caught being inside the same cubicle, or the awkwardness during the exit, you can go into separate cuicles and try doing it understall?



5) remain silent!
no matter how pleasurising.



6) clean up after you're done.
don't me inconsiderate and leave immediately. help that person clean up the mess you've made before you exit.



7) ensure that the toilet is empty before you unlock the cubicle door.
hear, peek under the door to make sure there's no one outside.
or it'll be awkward as hell.
sometimes, i'd even allow the person to leave first and re-lock the door.



8) exchange contact if u want?
i've never done it before.
i'd just wash my hands with soap and get out of there asap...without taking a second look at that person. LOL




usually, toilet sex isnt fun at all.
of course, you shldnt even be considering it if the toilet's wet and smelly.
the space is so small and you'd have to do it standing/ squatting most of the time.
i'd very much prefer long sex on a bed :D

however, i guess it's an ideal meeting place for a quickie hj.

just choose a clean, empty one.



the best i've had was with this 20+ guy, my height.
at an mrt toilet, i was rushing for a lunch appointment but wanted to pee.
then this guy came in right after me and cruised me.
idk how he knew i wld want to lalala :X
anyhoo, he was sooo hot that i coudlnt help but kissed him while we were at it.
i usually wldnt get into the mood of being intimate in such uncomfortable settings :X
and he was sooo...chivalrous (not the right word cos i'm not a girl? but shld be fine since i'm gay).
he somehow sensed my urgency and told me to leave first while he cleaned up.
so awesome :)



i guess this is one of the few "sexy" posts i have..
im not rly comfortable blogging abt my sexcapdes cos i've close friends reading this as well.
still feel weird telling them abt this part of my life hahaha.
i told them to treat lmo and myself as two different persons and not to refer me as lmo in real life LOL.

sense of space

i freaking hate it when my way is blocked.

when i'm in a rush and someone's sauntering in front of me, i'd just find ways and means to squeeze through.
but sometimes it is so difficult cos
1) he/she is fat and does not sense that someone is trying to overtake him/her in the narrow passageway
2) they are walking in a group and chatting away


and if i'm in any of these situations, i'd just "excuse me!!!" and barge my way through.

(i'm not afraid to knock into other people cos i'm rather big-sized. sometimes i'd be moses and "part the red sea" for my friends if we have to go against the "people flow". :D then they'll just follow behind me hahahha )


i mean, how difficult issit to keep left (right in some countries?) when you walk so people who are in a rush can pass through?

HATE IT when people do not keep to a side on escalators.
especially the mrt escalators when u might just need to run up to catch the train.
and on escalators, when the people in front do not keep left/right, other people will follow suit and make it impossible to over take.

why why why why cant people just be more...considerate?

embarrassed

i ended worked and rushed for the mrt but i still missed it by that much.
just my luck.

walked towards the end of the station, saw this cute guy sitting on the bench.
sat down at the other end of the bench...eyed him sparingly.
i was in the midst of my smurfs game when the train came.
just when i got up, i felt a tap on my shoulder.
it was him!

you know, the omg moment...
with tons of questions rushing through your head.


was i too obvious with my staring?
what is he gonna say to me?
i rmb my phone number right...



cute guy: excuse me...
and pointed to the bench i sat on.



i wanted to knock my head onto the bench and just die then.
my fucking phone was lying there!


i was sooooooooooooooooo embarrassed i muttered "thanks", grabbed my hp and ran into the train.


for some reason, he didn't get on the train.
he just sat back down again...perhaps he was waiting for someone.


he was staring at me.
perhaps wondering how rude i was.
he saved me from losing a phone and i rushed off just like that?
but i was really too ashamed of myself and wanted to get away from this awkward situation asap.
plus i didnt want to miss my train.
and i was about to lose my smurf's hamering game!

i was still playing with my ipod when i looked at him from inside the train.
left his stare almost as quickly as i met it.
mouthed "thanks" again and won my game.


i'm rly sorrry i gave such a rude reaction...shld have thanked him profusely.
can't think when i'm embarrassed :X


p.s. i'm rly not like this normally. i've not lost my wallet/phone in my life. only misplaced them for a while and i'll find them back eventually.

p.p.s. AN-bitch- said that i find every guy cute. this is soooo not true. i know i've been calling every guy in my posts "cute". this is cos my vocab is really limited and i'm lazy to search thesaurus.com. and of cos, there isn't a lack of cute guys in SG and i see no point of blogging abt the cmi ones. so it appears that i find every single guy i see cute.

back

woohoo finally back from my 2nd trip.

it was okay. not amazing...but i think a little overated.
plus i didn't go with the right ppl...


will blog abt it tml or smth... i wanna relax and catch up on my shows first :)


there was this joker on the place just now.
a caucasian pointing to the cabin, "Is there anywhere i can hang my jacket? I don't want to just chuck it in there."
the flight attendant looked stunned. i guess she didn't know how to reply and ran to ask her colleague.
after exchanging a few remarks, she returned and told him, "you can hold it!"

that joker raged! didnt shout...but sarcastically replied, "i can hold it...yeah i can!"

what is he expecting from a budget airline? first class service?
if he was that rich to afford a suit that cannot be mishandled, why the hell is he taking a budget flight?
i mean, when people book flights from these companies, they should already know that the service will be much worse than more established ones.
yet, they are still that demanding?
cant they understand the saying "you get what you pay for".

i've dealt with customers like that before...lamenting on some loose threads on my products.
it is a probem that almost every one of them has.
i got so fed up with him (cos i already took out a few for him to choose from and he kept telling his wife in hokkien that i'm selling faulty things. think i dont understand. HMPH!) and said, "you can buy it from xxx (rival company). those $700 ones...quality would be definitely better!"

i know i'm not in the position to say things like that, they're the customer and are always right.
what  utter bullcrap.
there are so many unreasonable customers out there, only mother theresa will be able to smile and handle every one of them calmly.
i'm just not cut out to provide customer service...i'd always voice my opinion if i feel something is wrong and will not allow myself to "abused".
i'll never bow down to unreasonable customers. :)

short trip

so yeah, i went on a short holiday to a not so well-off country.

going to such places would always make you feel you've taken your life for granted.


was walking on the street, enjoying my icy-cold coke that i just bought.
two kids approached and pointed at the bottle of quarter-drunk coke with pleading eyes.
obviously, i gave it to them.
what could i have done? shooed them away?
perhaps i could have just strutted on.
but it was just a bottle of coke.


later, while having dinner, 2 kids came to pester again.
they asked for a single pork rib which was not touched yet.
fine...we let them have it.


after a few days in that country, we realised that the children have gotten so used to begging for food.
we got hard and didn't give anymore food to anyone.
i don't know if i shld feel angry at or feel sorry for them.

their way of life disrupts tourists from having a peaceful meal...but i guess they don't have any other way to feed themselves.
i just feel fortunate that even though i'm far from having a silver spoon, i've never had to beg for food in my life.

communication with straighties

i think i wont be able to communicate all that well with straight guys.


i can't relate to topics most straighties talk about...


1) soccer.
my knowledge of soccer is limited to david beckham.
ok and it's a game of 22(?) players chasing after a stupid ball.
world cup happens every four years.
epl and wtv shit exists for clubs to play against each other?

i've no way to remain in a conversation about soccer.
i'd run out of things to say once i told them how i feel david beckham's wife is hot.




2) girls.
at work, the guys would always ogle at hot girls.
commenting on their looks while saying how much they wld want that hot girl.

some of them asked me what kind of girls i like.
obviously they are trying to fish out if i like girls at all.
i was taken off guard and im gonna prepare it now in case i get asked again in future:
i just gotta see her and if there are any sparks.
preferrably with long hair, (not too) bitchy+gossipy and isn't a doormat.
must also be able to speak in proper english...and doesn't whine nore act cute all the time.

this is really an area where i'm not interested in...so my attention might not be able to be sustained for that long.




3) cars.
zero knowledge. tyvm. the car i want next time will just have to be chio!
and of course not too ex to maintain.



 4) games.
i do not game at all. i've spent at a lan shop for only 2 times in my life.
i could understand cs and l4d...managed to play for a few rounds but obviously getting killed all the time.
while dota was pure torture. idk what on earth i was doing clicking my monster around.




maybe this is why i don't have straight friends who are uber close. :X
hopefully i'll make some in my new sch and wont be limited by these communication-handicap.

(not that) old playlist

here are just some old songs that i was obsessed with.
they were on loop for at least a few days in my playlist.

never will be (2)

rmb that awesomely cute guy i met at work previously?
i saw him again today cos his partner was on mc.


i was crossing my fingers. hoping to see him again.
the last time i went back, he wasnt there :(

but woohoo, he came!
without specs...all the more cuter.

he was in a bad mood...quarrelled with a friend the night before or smth.
i was glad he wasn't overwhelmed with anger but instead, there was this palpable disappointment.
i usually steer clear of people who are easily angered.

however, i avoid smokers too.
my wonderful impression of him fell right into the drain when he accepted a smoke invite from the promoter of another brand.
i asked him if he smoked when he returned (there wasn't smoke smell coming from him ok. or maybe my nose wasn't that strong. but i could detect it from the other promoter).
he replied, "yeah, when i'm in a foul mood".
bleahs.
smoking is something that even his dimples can't salvage.


idk why im still ranting abt him when i'm probably never going to see him again.
once this promotional fair ends, who knows where he will be posted to.
time to forget him lmo.
he isn't all that for me anw.


p.s. added him on fb. wonder what he'll think. prolly that i'm such a stalker and ignore me forever cos there's no way i could have found his fb. stalked it by searching through another promoter's (who has a more unique name) fb. didn't want to add the other guy at first cos he's kinda weird...but no choice. if i didn't i'd just appear too stalkerish.

red riding hood (spoiler)

watched the movie with my friends.

amanda seyfried has the most gorgeous eyes ever!
they are XXXXXXXL!
how i wish mine are as big.
you may rmb her from dear john.


anyhoo, i think the movie was just okay.
bearable at the most.

it did keep us discussing on who's actually the wolf throughout the movie.
imagine how noisy we were.

the suspect change from henry, to peter, to claud, to grandmama, and the priest.

claud because he was just super suspicious throughout the whole movie...he's down syndrome and acted weirdly.

it couldnt have been peter cos peter didnt have hazel eyes. peter's was blue i think. so i ruled him out...altho my friends still thought he was it.

i guessed that it could either have been henry or her grams.

henry cos he was the alone with his dad when his dad was attacked. he escaped unscratched too.

grams cos they kept casting her in suspicious light...and she had olive eyes!

the priest cos...well...i just disliked him from the start. when he was killed at the end, all of us were going "yes! yes! YES!"

quite hilarious.
there were quite a number of us, so naturally, our comments were not as silent as it should be.
but it wasn't that bad either.
or there would have definitely been "shhhhhhhhhssssss" from other viewers.
i would do that if others are constantly irritating me throughout the show.

i guess i shall not reveal who the wolf is...
in case any of you intends to watch it.

i still cant decde if henry or peter is cuter.

peter has a more defined chin and eyes that will pierce through your soul while henry's can just melt your heart.
what do you think? :P

cya

hello ppl.
i'm gonna fly again! wooohoo!


first trip paid by myself...going with friends somemore.
so awesome!

my few months worth of hard-earned money will just be gone like that.
poof!

havent returend my parents the money though...used their credit card.
and i don't have enough to pay the full sum now cos i received my stupid paycheck just yesterday.
it wont be cleared until monday.
so i'm just gonna have to pay them the rest later.
after that, i'll be broke.


anyhoo, posts are scheduled as usual.
back next week...miss me when i'm gone :P

blondes

this is so hilarious!

btw, i don't know what the "smart" in smartphones stands for.
i'm sure i'm not the only one right :X

pet peeves

i was on the bus today...and this old man sitting in front of me was scratching his head incessantly.
i was soooooooooo disgusted by it.

i just cant stand someone scratching their head directly in front of me.
it's filthy!
i'd always imagine the flaking flying all over.

i was really stupid not to have changed places immediately, but i was afraid i'd offend him :X
next time this wont happen again.

i've had worse experiences...we were having lessons in the lecture theatre and he was scratching his head.
dandruff fell like it was snowing.
i scolded him and asked him to stop it immediately cos i couldnt switch seats.



another pet peeve of mine: ppl who shake thier legs for no reason.
it's just freaking distracting.
imagine trying to solve a maths question and that constantly moving thing distracts you to no end.
my classmate raged at another classmate after an exam cos he distracted him by shaking his leg throughout the entire paper.
i've experienced it too...but there's nothing u can do abt it during the paper. there's no way u can switch seats. i just used my left hand to block out that view.
worse, if you are sharing a bench with that person...you will have to shake along with his leg. that person will just get bitched by me. :)


don't understand why these irritants can't spare a thought for others and have to indulge in their own ungainly ways.

window?

was watching incredible tales with my family...has been so long.
computer has totally replaced tv in my life.
with no advertisements, i could watch twice as much in the same period of time.
with the pause button, i needn't be afraid to miss a certain section if i need the toilet.
it's also updated much more quickly then sg's tv.
kudos to those who uploads these vids for us to watch!
it would certainly be perfect if there aren't so many deadlinks...but oh well, you've just got to watch it soon enough before the evil streaming sites remove them.
still, cant blame them since there are copyright issues.


anyhoo, the story was based in malaysia i think.
where this girl was raped and killed cos she ignored a guy who tried to pick her up.
then her mother dressed her in full red (to seek vengeance) and made her promise to seek justice.
that guy returned to his sister's place a few years later and the hauntings began.
typical horror film scares and shocks...appearing in mirrors, cupboard opening and creaking etc.
my sister was totally freaked out by this scene when the sister was in bed, sleeping on her sides and felt something behind her.
when she turned her around, the ghost's disfigured face was directly in front of her.


so i guess this scene creeped my sister out totally.
she's even younger than my bro.
later when she was in bed, she instructed my bro to sleep beside her.
so there they were squeezing in a super single bed.
hilarious.
i only found out when i went into their room cos i was bored.
layed down on my bro's bed.
she was lying on her sides, with her back facing my bro.
i guess this would provide her with a little comfort?

we actually started making fun of her.
telling her that no matter how she slept, it is still possible for the ghost to get to her.
i.e. if she slept on her back, the ghost could come flying down from the ceiling.
it could also be hiding in her bolster...she immediately threw it off her bed.

then after a while, i felt a little bad and decided to comfort her.
telling her it is impossible for them to come into our home...cos we're the rightful owners and they aren't invited.

but when i left, i added, "but i think they can still say hi to you through the window..."

she screamed. :X


kinda evil.
but i think she'll grow out of it.

i was scared of ghosts previously...like when i was 7?
then i started realising how silly it was to be scared of something that i haven't seen.
not really doubting their existence, but more of accepting that i dun have the gift to see them...so they shouldn't interfere with my life.

i wouldn't mind being able to communicate with them...so long as they appear as normal ppl and not scare the living daylights out of me.

BOO!

i was using the computer, my bro was playing with his terrapin as usual.

i bought it. but my exams period came soon, so i was uber tired and didnt take care of it.
fortunately, my bro willingly took over.

he grew closer and closer to it everyday.
if he wants to stay over at my gram's place, he would order my dad to feed it.
he has the kind of patience and care that i don't.
i know i'm a very irresponsible pet owner.
that's why i most probably won't own anymore in future.
ok maybe those low maintenance one like fish or smth.
(imagine if i'm straight and had a baby. it'll just die of infection. i wont ever want to clean it's poo poo.)

he even takes it out of it's aquarium and allows it to walk about the house.
talking to it everynight before sleeping. (i find this kinda ridiculous lah, but i know of someone who talks to his cactus when he's bored. so i guess it's quite normal?)

anyhoo, so i was using fb.
then he shouted suddenly, "BOO!"

i was startled.
-.-
and got irritated for this unwarranted scare, "what the hell did u shout for?!"


he replied, "eh! i think it is deaf!"


i couldn't help but burst out laughing.
his innocence is quite amusing at times.

i need it right now

and yeah i boarded my delayed flight.

everything was fine...until i finished dinner.

because of the cups of coffee i drank before the flight, i was kinda dehydrated.
downed cups of water and rested for a while.

was awoken by the irritating announcement abt turbulence and that we were to remain seated.
i couldnt fall back asleep after that.

then, i felt the urge to pee.
i was thinking ok i'll go once the seatbelt sign is off.

but it never went off.
and the turbulence never came.


and before i knew it, they announced that the plane was landing.
i was like fuckfuckfuckfuck i need the freaking toilet!

but i kept telling myself that it's okay, it'll land soon...since they've already announced it.
it.
wasn't.
soon.
at.
all.

idk why, but the plane seemed to have gone exceptionally slowly, perhaps to torture my bursting bladder even more.
and guess what, the arrival area was the farthest possible one from the runway.
it drove for a feaking long distance before it "docked". (what is the right word?)


i dun understand why we've to remain seated even after the plane has landed.
how badly can the pilot drive?

but i didnt dare to risk the flight stewardess screaming for me to sit down so i just held and held.
it was freaking painful lah!

right when the seatbelt light went off, i unbuckled and ran straight up to the front.
one stewardess tried to stop me...she was pulling the curtains to keep the economy class ppl inside and let the business class ppl leave first.
i just flashed her a desperate expression, "toilet. urgent. now!"

she had to pull something out of the toilet for me to use.
didn't know they store things in the toilet.
anw, it was definitely one of the longest pee of my life.

Delayed

My flight is delayed for an hour and I'm waiting in the lounge. Using their wifi to blog. Gonna try grindr ltr lol. CNN is going non stop about the 8.9M quake in japan. Hope the devastation will not be overwhelming like szechuans. Think the Japanese are more prepared with their constant drills.

~

I am so bored. The closest grindr is 6.7km away. I've ran out of pastries to try. Gonna finish reading the new posts. Rowr.

I'm trying different kinds of coffee now. Can't tell the difference between latte and cappuccino. Except that cappuccino is more foamy?

checklist

He's funny.
He's gorgeous.
He's helpful.
He's nice.
He's confident.
He's smart.
He's flattering.
He's talented.
He's fashionable.
He's guitar-playing.
He's popular.
He understands you.
He compliments you.
He helps you.
He carries your shopping.
He chases you when you stalk off.
He doesn't mind when you say you hate him.
He is not shy in front of his friends.
He will do anything you ask.
He doesn't order you to make sandwiches all day.
He loves you more than his Xbox.
He calls you beautiful not fit.
He says 'I love you' not luv ya.
He always has time for you.
He doesn't care about sex.
He says he misses you when you just left each other.
He is perfect.
He is gay.

saw this on fb.
how many of you are that perfectly gay?

new age kids

kids are so lucky nowadays.

im not trying to act old or anything...i wont ever want to.
but i'm sure most of you can relate to what i mean.

10 years ago (gosh this feels old), the only gaming device i've encountered was what, a gameboy?
my parents wouldn't buy me one...i only got a chance to play with it every sat, where my relatives would all gather at my grandparents and i'll snatch it from my older cousin.

i can't rmb exactly when, but he didn't even have gameboy colour at that time.
once, he asked my aunt to buy him a "cartridge"...i said i wanted one too.
he laughed at me and said, "what for? you dun even own a gameboy..."

i guess i was too young to know what a cartridge was.


oh i rmb there's an even older gaming device.
i do not know it's name...but it's black and white too.
and there are similar controls to a gameboy i think...the up-down-left-right button etc.
but there are only a few games in there...one of them being tetris.
i think it's still available in those value$ stores.


but nowadays, if you walk past a primary school, no one would be surprise if they are playing iphone games.
it evolved from gameboy to gameboy colour/ advanced/ sp then came the playstation 1/2/3/p then xbox and what's the latest? wii?

i can't even keep up. ok i guess i do not keep up cos i know my parents would never give in and buy us one.
imagine how "cool" i was in school.
i wouldn't have anything to add if my classmates are talking about games. i do not game at all.
not even today. except maybe tetris on fb and viwawa. not to forget neopets too.
i've played lan only twice? cs and l4d.
kept screaming cos it's damn scary to get killed suddenly.


but i guess it was a good thing. while people were wasting their money buying acash for maple/audition, i watched dramas online for free.
i've a classmate who spent over a thousand sgd on maple.
how many meals i'd have to skip to save that amt.


i've also gotten sick of seeing kids throwing tantrums in the toys department so their parents would relent and buy them the toys they fancy.
such brats! i might have pulled that stunt once or twice when i was younger, a few times succeeding while majority of the time, i'd have successfully landed myself a beating at home.
but as i grew older, i gained some smarticles and a sister too.
so whenever i wanted something, i'd just entice her with it so she'll be the one asking my parents to purchase it instead.
and she, being the youngest and the only daughter, gets pampered the most and gets what she wants most of the time.


i guess i really cant compare my childhood with the one kids are having these days.
the amount spent on their contraption can seriously last me a month of food...or perhaps a few trips down orchard.
but of course, if i were to compare my childhood to that of the sixties etc, it'll appear much better off too.